A grail journey of the heart

Many strands make up and move our lives in seen and unseen ways.

One of the more hidden strands that has impulsed my journey of life on a very deep level is the myth and tale of the grail.

The grail has been described as a chalice that holds an energy of light that replenishes, revitalizes, heals, restores and creates indefinite living….. In some myths it is described as the blood of Christ received by Joseph of Arimathea on the cross… In others it is a gift from the angels to assist humanity and countless stories have been created around it.

In my life it was a myth and energy that had a very deep resonance in my being – describing an energy of a source of replenishment and vitalisation that seemed so far yet also so here. An energy that was externalized as a chalice, looked after by a group of men and women of pure heart in its service, the knights of which would go out into the world to assist people and situations that called for upliftment.

When I was a child and young teenager I found myself living in more than one reality. As a child my world was filled with nature spirits and invisible friends, which were not welcomed in the ‘ordinary’ reality, so at some point I closed the door to that. But the ordinary reality was much too onedimensional and scary to fulfil my being, so I opened another door into a parallel reality where I co-created and lived a parallel life. ( I guess one could call it a virtual life, as it happened in my imagination, but it occurred without technology).

So while In the outer world I was growing up with fear and uncertainty trying to learn the rules of this reality to fit in and to minimise the hurt and violence coming towards me, in my inner world, where I spent half of my time I was a character who was totally unafraid and could do anything, change the world, complete feats of what we would call impossible and create change and miracles. In fact I had a gang of youngsters who were part of my team and at certain telepathic signals we could all be mobilised at great speed and translocate to where we were required to assist a person or situation who was in need.

Thus when I started to read and hear about the stories of the knights of the grail, they were seamlessly incorporated into my inner world as a very familiar energy.

When I was old enough in my inner world I became a knight of the grail.

This parallel inner world was a wonderful place to inhabit as everything was possible. No limitations to the imagination and all situations that felt difficult and incomprehensible in the ordinary reality were able to be re-worked and transformed in this inner reality – events were re-written and stories changed – always to create a better outcome.

I lived consciously and actively in both realities until I was 19 years old when I made a decision to put my energy fully into this reality to be fully present here. But since then so many elements of what had occurred in the inner story have inadvertently found their way into my outer life;

In the inner world I had taken on various ‘professions’ and skills – including farming, being a performing singer, being a negotiator and mediator, counsellor in courts and high places…. and a blacksmith – able to create with metal…..

Another 19 years later I reflected on my inner world and what it had given me and realised that many of these skills had actualised in my life in different ways to how they were dreamt up in the inner world but nevertheless here they were: I had trained as a farmer after leaving school, then expanded into music and voice, trained in various therapeutic modalities – negotiating with various inner courts and becoming a travelling troubadour, singing around the world, weaving vibrational fields of possibility and change – mediating and co-creating with energies of many lands and dimensions

so when I found myself sitting by a beautiful campfire in Scotland on a friends’ land with cows joining us as I played music and we shared stories and Ton who was sitting next to me started telling me about his journey of discovery of crafting singing bowls as a coppersmith/ blacksmith I had the very clear knowing that this was one of the vital pieces that was still missing. The smith! It was completely clear knowing that I needed to become a metal smith crafting instruments for the future! YES. The smith! What a gift!